Silence is beautiful.

Our fatal Flaw

Lack of action will be our end.

Question

Has anyone seen or heard from the Curious Cat? I think Curiosity actually killed him. So if no one has seen or heard from him I might have to begin looking in the obiturairies.

A Change is Coming

Lately, I feel blah. I feel as if I have no direction or point. I realize that what I am currently attending school for and even working an internship in is not a passion of mine.(It is finance by the way) I do find the learning and understanding of a new role exciting but apart from that I would like to reiterate the feeling of blah. I believe I need to redirect myself towards an entirely different field. So my question is do I just get up and do that? Do I just get away from my internship and focus on my passions? Or do I just survive my current predicament and then change? Or is there another way?

Honestly, when it is said and done the decision is entirely mine, but I would like outside opinions on the matter. I believe seeing other people’s takes could help me understand myself better and solve this predicament. (especially since most of you know me)

Problems with finance:
a field full of assholes and liars
people are either dry or scumbags
people tend to work 80 plus hours and are bald, fat and out of shape by late thirties
did I mention they have high blood pressure
also the long hours and time directed towards work usually ruin people’s personal lives
not a field with too many amazing intellects
a field based on greed
I could probably go on but you get the point...

Inside

I cannot think today, I cannot focus.
My mind is filled with nothingness.
Not a single idea do I possess or can create.
I look upon the glass window where the raindrops fall with no purpose.
I fall with them.

You decide

What do people think when they listen to me? Are my thoughts not valuable, are they not credible? For, I am not of you or like you. I am of my own and although I may not be as deep into thought as you, I still feel. I still function in this world. Why does your mind cringe at the words I utter from my mouth? Are they vile, do they poison your mind? My words are not cancerous, so why do you treat them so? Why must you punish me with your words? Do not push me aside, but accept what I have to offer. Do you envy me? Is that why you treat me as if every thought I posses or create is obscured?Is my spirit too free and in touch with nature? Does my lack of knowledge madden you? When were you put upon a throne of enlightenment, when were you crowned the king of free thought? I am not a human just like you? Why do you force me to wear a mask, to hide my true identity from society and reduce it to nothingness? Does this arouse you or make you feel more human than I? Does it satisfy you sexually, does it quench your thirst or enrage you? I am not who you think I am. I am known only to myself and I do not have to explain my actions. For they are just and true and have no deeper desires. I live for the enjoyment of life, not for the torture of others.

What am I?

A rock is a rock and always will be a rock. But a rock does not know it is a rock. It exists and simply is.
I am a human. I live and exist, but I KNOW I am a human. But I don't know what is a human. I know what I am not, but I don't know what I am. I always change. I must create myself through my interactions with the world. I can define myself as anything I want. I create myself from nothing. I can be a doctor, a father, a philosopher, etc. But I know I am more than that. I can never define myself. Because of this consciousness, I will always be incomplete.

A quick thought

Happiness is an abstraction. Not a just a simple, shallow idea. There is a problem with trying to understand happiness. For people to understand it they have to first convert it into something they can comprehend something finite. Yet happiness is far from finite. Example) A man is happy because he has a good life. A man could be happier though if he has a better life. And a man could still be happier if he has an even better life. In this example I show there is a state where man can become happier and that means happiness cannot be finite. There is no ultimate level of happiness which one could reach and not go beyond it. With that laid out, how can we convert happiness into a finite idea and explain it? I don’t think we can, though we do try. I have a major problem with people trying to convert infinite abstractions into finite things. A few other examples are, God and love. With that said I do not think it is impossible to define these abstractions but I do think it may be impossible to ever fully understand them. Example) Infinite, we define it as endless or limitless .But could we fully understand it? Can we imagine an infinite amount of numbers? I believe not.

Utility

The useful creates the useless.
But without the useless,
What is useful?

Wisdom?

Why do those who are wise choose to impart their "wisdom" to others?
Do they wish for all to be as "wise" as they are?
Do they actually care for all of humanity?
Do they believe by sharing some tidbit of knowledge they will help mankind?
And thus do they gain some kind of gratification from this?
Do they just enjoy showing others how much "smarter" they are?
Do they enjoy being praised by others?
Are those who share their wisdom actually wise?
Is there any reason for those who are truly wise to share their wisdom?
What is wisdom?
Who is wise?

A Letter about Love to the Masses

Dear Masses,

I asked three wise fools what love is.
The first was a cynic.
He simply replied it is just a lapse in the true nature of human relations.
I then asked the second, he was a married man.
He extensively elaborated on love. He said it is a special bond between two people. It is not easily defined because it manifests itself differently in all individuals and no two people really can show and love each other in exactly the same way. He went on to say he believes it is rare and states that in this day and age most people do not have the ability to make love work do to our dying morals and stubbornness. Before he ended he asked if I saw his divorce papers anywhere.
I finally went to ask the third, he was a hopeless romantic.
But I cannot tell you what he said. Only what I can conclude from his actions. See, before I reached him, the love of his life died. So he decided he wouldn’t go on without her. I guess that means he believed love is the ultimate point to life and without it there is no point.

After asking the three wise fools what love was I realize I am no closer to an answer, maybe even further from one. In the end, love is something that needs to be experienced to even remotely try and understand it. Even then with so many people and different ways of thinking understanding a complex idea such as love would be like trying to understand infinite knowledge. It would be impossible. To conclude my response to what love is would be this: Do not try and understand love, but rather find the one you love and try to fully understand them.

Yours Truly,

Another Wise Fool

Thoughts on contentment

Contentment and satisfaction are overrated
they appear as clouds in a sunny sky
they blocks out the true meaning of things
and it is my choice to see through them
if that means a lack of hedonistic pleasure
or the weight of the world on my shoulders
well atlas, here I come to take your place
Because I rather be stressed, angry, and unhappy
then to be enjoying those things which are shallow
now if you think I am against happiness
then you missed the point
My problem is with the clouds’ most likely end results, apathy
Apathy will lead you down and road of unlikely return
It will take your flame and extinguish it
If you are lucky you’ll wake up mid life
and realize your life is a shame
and if you wake up it will be just in time
to walk down your apathetic highway one more time before death
So what is one to do?
Strive for perfection, reach for the unreachable
with this goal you will never find rest
but that doesn’t mean you cannot be happy
life is about the journey and each step,
It’s not about the destination
so take up the creed to become better with each breathe
strive for greatness in each step
and never settle for your current place
see through the clouds in the sky
and carry whatever needs to be carried forward
rather than standing by idle and content

Test

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